Wednesday, February 29, 2012

I Just Joined the 21st Century, Folks!

Trying out my new smartphone. So far, I love it! This message, as a matter of fact, is coming from it.

I love having the ability to blog on the run. This opens so many doors for me. Technology is amazing!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

The Hardest, Worst Part Is...

...knowing that I, to him, was not worth the truth.

My biggest mistakes, I think, were loving him truly and completely and giving waaaaaaaaaay too much of myself to him, when he obviously wasn't on the same page I was.  I know those don't sound like mistakes--quite the opposite--but they were mistakes just the same.

I have loved two men in my life, and both took advantage of me and used me.  Hmmmmmmm.  Lesson learned, I believe.  Or in the process of being learned.

Mental illness is a horrible thing.  I'm not afraid of it  and never was, but it is a horrible thing.  Cancer of the mind, it was once described to me by a mental health professional.  It will be the fight of his life to beat it.  I was there for him and willing to join him in the trenches, but I wasn't needed, obviously.

What do I do now?  I continue to grow and be the amazing person that I am.  No pity parties, maybe just a little depression, but just celebrating me.  But I will admit that I think often that the mistake he has made will come back and bite him big time, if it hasn't done so already.  And it may be too late to make it right.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Studies In Womanhood

At basket class last night, I had the pleasure of the company of so many wonderful women, all of whom are taking differing paths down the road of life, yet have arrived at their destination in such a unique, fulfilling, and inspiring way.

Bev, the teacher, is a shining example of not letting the rough patches in life determine the outcome.  In addition to being a master basketmaker, she is one of the calmest people I have ever met in my life.  She has been divorced and has watched a daughter die of cancer at elementary school age.  But she has not let that get her down; in fact, she has created her own business, travels the country teaching basketmaking skills to all ages, teaches the Morton classes in West Lafayette, and just found out she is going to be a grandma this summer!  She has also taken charge of her health by becoming a runner and losing a large amount of weight.  I'm sure it wasn't easy to get to this point in her life, but look at the rewards!

We had a first-timer join us last night.  She suffers from a mental disorder that has left her on disability.  Does that get her down?  No!  Instead, she makes the rest of us look like slugs with her activity schedule.  Volunteering for NAMI (among others), attending multiple support groups, regularly taking her meds to moderate her symptoms--she is one busy gal!  She also realizes that her best chance of leading an active, involved life is to surround herself with positive people.  I am so inspired by her, overcoming her obstacles and LIVING.

Lastly, Joyce and Betty.  Oh my!  These two very active, very wonderful senior citizens regularly attend basketmaking class.  In their professional lives, they were both educators.  Now, they go to basket class among other creative interests (Betty is having a houseful of quilters at her place this weekend for an all-weekend quilt-in!).  Joyce is a huge Purdue women's basketball fan and keeps us up to date on the scores of the games.  She also organizes the carry-in lunch when we have a Saturday class.  I believe that they both participate in WALLA (lifelong learners organization) and volunteer their time for various community services, such as Friends of the Library.  And both have a wonderful sense of humor, a keen intellect, and a ready laugh!  When I grow up, I want to be just like these two beautiful women.

I am fortunate.  Not only did I get to make a great basket last night, but I got to observe and learn from four women who are a success at life and an inspiration for all  of us.  We go, girls!

2/23/12--Round Melon Basket

Here it is, as promised--the Round Melon Basket that I made last night at basket class at the Morton Community Center in West Lafayette with Bev Larson teaching.  I can say that this is one of the easiest baskets I have ever woven--once I started "listening" to the reed talking to me and letting me know where it needed to go :-)  The variegated, or space-dyed, reed--blues and greens--also made every spoke an adventure as far as knowing what the finished project would actually look like.

Basket class was the first chance literally in a month that I have had time to relax and it was nice.  It was hard to get going because of my nerves and depression, and my hands were actually shaking; but I think that was because I had had too much caffeine yesterday :-)

It was nice to get back into the basketmaking groove again.  No matter how tough things get, it's always a blessing to have old "friends" to fall back on.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

On the Bright Side...

I have basket class this week!  I am doing a Round Melon Basket with Bev Larson at the Morton Community Center on Thursday night 2/23.  I CAN'T WAIT!  I've missed the smell of wet reed, the flexibility of said wet reed, the texture achieved from different types of weaving, the amazement of a beautiful, functional basket taking shape from your hands.

Bring it on!  I'll take a photo and post it later for you to see.

Quote of the Day

Borrowing from my "good friend" Reba McIntyre:

"I guess the world ain't gonna stop
For my broken heart."

On a related note, a very good friend of mine is in the hospital right now for various possible heart-related issues.  Please offer up a prayer for him and cross everything you have that he will check out ok.  Thanks for your kindness.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Becoming a Turtle

I admit it; I don't like to let things get the best of me.  But this past week has beaten me, broken me, worn me completely down mentally and physically.

I haven't done a whole lot this week.  I feel how high my depression level has risen.  I don't want to even touch my counted cross stitch; no thoughts of baking and/or even looking at a cookbook;  and I'm afraid the wash has gone all week without being done.  I have even lost interest in visiting Pinterest and finding all the great ideas there and pinning them to my boards.

Will I get over it?  You bet; I haven't a doubt in the world about that.  Will it be hard?  Bingo on that one, too.  But it will happen, and I will feel better someday; in that I do trust.

I'm not proud to admit this, but two days this week I was so low that I came home from work, dropped my stuff by the front door, and crawled into bed and pulled the covers up around my head.  And that's where I stayed all night.  I was a turtle, retreated into my shell to hide from the big, bad world and all the problems that it has brought me this week.

There's an old saying that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, that whatever doesn't kill you will make you stronger.  I think God may have momentarily misplaced me on his burden distribution list and then discovered that He had already given me more than my fair share.  Thank goodness He found my name again and realized I had enough for now :-)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

This Week... in the running for one of the worst weeks of my life.  Ever.

No, I don't want to talk about it right now.  I will want to talk about it, but not right now.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

From the Heart: Super Baskets of Hope

You know that anything that has to do with helping kids is among my most favorite things in the world.  And Riley Hospital for Children in Indianapolis is so near and dear to my heart because of the hard work and miracles they perform on a daily basis for children of the nation and world (I still remember Kudrat, the little Afghan boy).  And, unless you have been living under a rock for the past few months, you know that Super Bowl XLVI will be taking place in Indianapolis this coming Sunday.

Well, the perfect storm has happened!  And just in time for the holiday on which we celebrate the heart and all its giving and loving glory.  Super Baskets of Hope is an organization that has put together and just delivered 7,000 gift baskets for ailing children in hospitals in the 32 NFL cities as well as hospitals in Indiana.  According to their website, this is a first year intiative between the Riley Children's Foundation, the Baskets of Hope program, and former Colts head coach Tony Dungy.

The list of sponsors is so impressive--everyone from Vera Bradley to the Tony Stewart Foundation to UPS to the University of Notre Dame.  There are some fabulous items going into those gift baskets!  Not only do the children receive baskets, but the parents can opt to receive Hope baskets for themselves.  What a kind, generous way to embrace these people who are in need of our love and support.  I've got to put this organization on my "must volunteer" list for the coming years.

Once again--I'm proud to be from Indiana, a state that rushes in to help and doesn't run away from the trouble.